Villa of Dreams


On the Pacific Coast of Ecuador, just north of Mantañita and Olón, lies a little fishing village called La Entrada. In Spanish, “The Entrance.”

An unlikely name for an unassuming Ecuadorian village. The entrance to what? 

We found out last week. It’s the portal to a world of dreams.



Villa de los Sueños, the place is called. Villa of Dreams. A four-story retreat on the rocky outskirts of La Entrada, overlooking the ocean. A beautiful bed and breakfast where every room has a terrace overlooking the sea. But it’s much more than that. It’s a haven, a place of peace, where you can see visions in the clouds and hear the music of your soul in the waves endlessly rocking against the shore. 



A place where Choco the lab brings offerings of rocks and tennis balls and escorts you on your walks along the beach. A place where the villa’s hosts, Marsha and Shell, create an ambiance of hospitality that welcomes and heals and morphs into friendship when you’re looking the other way. A magical place, aptly named.


IMG_4638Life beats us up sometimes, rushes us, digs a rut we can’t seem to get out of. We fail to recall, in those moments, the dreams we once had, the way we wanted to live, the passion and purpose that make us who we are. We lose sight of the truth that life is about the journey, not the destination.

We forget ourselves. We forget each other. Sometimes we need to pause, and let ourselves remember.

La Entrada. . .
The entrance
to a place of dreams,
where the rhythms of wind and surf
recalibrate the beating
of my heart,
slow my pulse,
remind me that I am part
of everything—
water and sand,
sun and cloud and rock,
laughter, tears, and visions
that stretch to the curved horizon,
and beyond.

Here, now
my soul is rekindled.
I remember
love and passion,
hope, tranquility,
and the promise of bright tomorrows.
Here, tonight,
in this Villa of Dreams,
with the crash of waves echoing
in my ears,
I take your hand
and find myself again.

© 2017 Penelope J. Stokes



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The End Is Where We Start From

Gates of Heaven

In “Little Gidding” from The Four Quartets, T. S. Eliot writes:

What we call the beginning is often the end
And to make an end is to make a beginning.
The end is where we start from. 

Today marks the end of the year. Some might say it’s the end of an era.  Others might even go so far as to speculate that we’re looking down a long dark tunnel to the end of Life as We Know It.


But maybe, just maybe, it’s also the opportunity for a new beginning. A do-over. A chance to start again.

The end is where we start from.

God knows we need a fresh start. For many people, the year 2016 has represented one long slide toward the oblivion of anything remotely resembling humanity. It’s been a year marked by mean-spirited ugliness, if not downright hatred.  It’s been a year of divisiveness and dualism, of us and them, of vulgarity and general nastiness, spewed across the Internet without remorse, all in the name of “telling it like it is.” It’s been a year which brought to the surface a simmering brew of racism, misogyny, homophobia, and general outrage that has been only thinly veiled from sight in the past eight years.

This past year has called out the worst in a lot of us. But perhaps it can serve to call out the best as well.

This one thing I know:  The government is not going to save us. Any government. The church is not going to save us. Any church. It’s up to us, individually, to begin to funnel life and light back into the world. It’s up to us to bring loving energy to bear in a world that seems intent upon its own destruction. It’s up to us to live in grace and gratitude, to share what we have, to take responsibility for our own state of mind and heart, and for the welfare of those who have less than we do. It’s up to us to reflect the Divine Image into the world, to carry that holy spark into dark places. It’s up to us to resist the hatred and malice, the entitlement and patriarchy. It’s up to us to model inclusivity and humility, hope and justice. It’s up to us to be the Incarnation we seek.

There is no one else. We are God’s hands and feet. We are God’s heart.

It’s up to us.


New Year’s Eve, 2016

Blessed are those who know
that the end and the beginning
are one,
who stand at the Still Point
and wait.

Blessed are those who know
that the seeds of our destiny
ride on our first wailing breath,
and a universe is opened
at our final exhalation.

Blessed are those who suspect
that death
is a myth,
and birth
is no real beginning,
only the seamless
liminal space
where world
touches world
and souls move
across an unseen threshold.

Blessed are those who know
that there is no starting point
and no great finish,
no winners or losers,
no fear or despair,
only one blazing hope;
only the now
of love and longing,
only the space between the stars
where hearts reach out
across a vast, void chaos.

Blessed are those who know,
and who let themselves be known,
for there are many paths,
in truth,
and all of them
lead home.

©2016 Penelope J. Stokes


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Gratitude in Action

img_0396This is Thanksgiving week. Our favorite holiday. On Thursday afternoon, my partner Pam and I will gather with friends who have become family for us–expats, Ecuadorians, people from all over the globe. We’ll share a meal, a bit of wine, and probably a lot of laughter. We’ll marvel over the miraculous “coincidences” that have brought us together from half a world apart. We’ll undoubtedly talk about things we’re thankful for. And the opportunity to live in Ecuador will be high on that list.

Since we moved to South America a little over a year ago, Pam and I have experienced things we never would have known in the States.

We’ve learned, for example, that even though mañana literally means “tomorrow,” what it really means is, “Not today.” We’ve learned to be patient waiting in line. We’ve learned that gringo is not a derogatory word, at least not in Ecuador. We’ve learned that being an immigrant in a foreign land carries with it a lot of challenges.

In our adopted country, however, being part of an ethnic and racial minority is not the frightening, angst-laden experience it can often be in the United States. We feel welcome here. We feel safe. We have found the Ecuadorian people, in general, to be gentle and welcoming, genuinely kind, and muy tranquilo.

Here in Cuenca we walk instead of drive, and so we speak to our neighbors on the street. We greet each other with smiles. We pause on our walks around the barrio to say, “Buenos dias. ¿Cómo está?” We sit in the park and watch the children play. It’s a slower life, mostly, a more peaceful life–at least when we remember to let it be. A life to be thankful for.

Ecuadorians, of course, don’t celebrate American Thanksgiving, but they do have a phrase for it:  Día de Acción de Gracias. The day of gratitude in action.

Active gratefulness. It’s a concept worth considering.


God of all graciousness,
God of all gifts,
teach me to live
thankfulness in action.

Let me be grateful
not in words only,
for words can be hollow
and hurtful
and false
as well as empowering,
and true.

Let me bring to the Thanksgiving table
all that is in me
of love and longing,
passion and purpose,
creativity and consolation.

Let me know the truth,
even when I would turn
a blind eye
to the mirror of self-awareness,
for nothing is now hidden
that will not be revealed,
and despite myself,
I yearn
for authenticity.

God of all graciousness,
God of all gifts,
let me leap into gratitude
like a cliff diver seeking the wind,
hope-filled, trusting,
and unafraid.

©2016 by Penelope J. Stokes

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No Ordinary Time

Light in cloudsYesterday was Pentecost Sunday—the celebration of the coming of the Holy Spirit. The day when the Spirit’s fire and wind blew through the closed doors where the disciples trembled in fear, and empowered them to get up, get out, and move on. To embrace their own resurrection and be transformed, and in so doing, transform the world around them.

The liturgical color for Pentecost is red—the color of celebration, yes, but also perhaps a signal to stop, to wait, to be still, to breathe in the Spirit. Immediately after Pentecost comes the command to “Go.”

It’s Monday morning. We move into Ordinary Time—the “long green season,” that seemingly endless time of the church year that leads us from Pentecost back to Advent, back to the beginning of the cycle, back to the place of Incarnation. Sometimes it feels as if we’ll never get there.

Whatever our sacred story, whatever faith we hold, it’s a metaphor worth considering, especially in a world where so many of our days seem…well, ordinary. Ordinary Time is where the Spirit continues to move—sometimes silently, invisibly, sometimes with obvious power and purpose. We can’t figure out where the Wind comes from or where it’s going, but somehow, miraculously, in the ordinariness of life, we are (or can be) resurrected, filled, transformed, empowered.

My good friend and former pastor, Joe, is fond of saying, “How do we know God is with us? We know because we will be led to places we never intended to go.”

This is no ordinary time. The Spirit, by whatever name we call Her, is moving among us. Pause for a moment and feel her breath on your face. Listen for her Voice in the wind. Feel her touch like the brush of a feather, like tongues of fire, like new insights opening inside a dream.

She is here, waiting. Waiting for us to notice, and be filled.


12743933_567325366776946_747183996046465529_n[1]Pentecost, Yes

Spirit Mother,
who hovered over the abyss
and birthed from the dark waters,
everything that is,
seen and unseen,
move unseen among us now
and raise us to new creation.

Spirit Mother,
who gathered us under her wings
like a hen with chicks,
nurturing, warming,
and loving,
love us now
with the glory of your presence.

Spirit Mother,
who breathes like a mighty wind
through the closed doors
of our ordinary lives,
break us out of staleness,
fling wide the shutters of our souls
and send us forth
to be and to become.

We are all flawed and fickle,
we are all wounded healers,
we are all half finished,
but by grace,
Spirit Mother,
we are yours.

© 2016 Penelope J. Stokes

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Ecuador Weeps….

Ecuador Weeps


16 Abril, 2016
6:58 p.m.

An earthquake measuring 7.8 on the Richter Scale strikes the northern coast of Ecuador, leaving hundreds dead, thousands more injured, and countless numbers buried under the debris.


Cry from the Rubble


Can anyone hear me?
Can anyone help?

The world has shrunk to
heat and choking dust,
this tiny pocket of blackness,
this concrete coffin.

I cannot feel my legs,
but with one hand
I reach and touch
a waxwork arm,
putrid, unmoving,
stinking of death
and decomposition.

¿Dónde está mi familia?
Where are my wife,
my daughter,
my baby son?
Has the terremoto
taken them,
or are they searching,

I try to speak,
but no words come.
I close my eyes to pray.
It makes no difference.
Dark is dark.
Above, I hear the distant sound
of voices.


© 2016 Penelope J. Stokes


The beautiful people of Ecuador are suffering. Over 400 dead and thousands injured or still missing. Roads to the coast are destroyed, making it difficult for aid to get to some of the villages. Many of those who survived the earthquake are now dying in the streets for lack of water, food, or medical attention.

If you can help, please consider giving a donation through the Hearts of Gold Foundation: Hearts of Gold is a very reputable, very solid 501c3 nonprofit here in our adopted home of Cuenca, Ecuador. Click on the “Earthquake Relief” button at the top, or type “Earthquake Relief” in the search box. You can donate by credit card or bank draft.

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The Holy In-Between

003I’ve long been fascinated with the concept of liminal time—those thresholds in life, the portals that usher us from one stage of growth and awareness into another. My word for the year, in fact, is Thresholds: metaphors of birth and rebirth, sleep and waking, change, transition, transformation.


In my experience, Ash Wednesday is such a time, a potent moment of transition that leads us into the darkness of Lent.

A lot of people don’t like Lent, I know. It’s seen as a bleak forty days in the wilderness, a long mea culpa, complete with hair shirt and fasting, beating the breast, and bemoaning our sinful state. But I don’t see it that way at all.

I see Lent as an opportunity to learn from the darkness. To pause and listen to the sounds of the desert at night, to see new stars and hear the night birds calling. Not to give something up, but to take something in—new truths, new practices, new insights.

Most of us don’t care much for the in-between time. We’d rather be here or there, then or now, not hovering somewhere in limbo. We prefer light to darkness, answers to questions, open doors to mysterious veils that sway on the breath of the Unknown.

And yet, if we think about it, the span of our lives is carried out in liminal spaces. We are always on the verge of something, transitioning between Who We Are and Who We’re Called to Be. We are ever in the cycle between darkness and light, and no matter how fervently we shut our eyes and pray for the dawn to come, night must run its full course.

So perhaps a better approach to Lent would be to step fearlessly into the darkness, to breathe the night air and feel out the path, one step at a time. To take with us, into whatever dawn may come, the blessing and trust that can only be garnered in the dark. To walk by faith, and not by sight.

In the space between Here
and Out There
lies the infinite, dizzying
fear of the Fall,

the dark Abyss
of Unknowing
that threatens my need
for Control.

In the time between Now
and Then
lies the looming, unanswerable
question of Tomorrow,

the myth of Certainty,
the sweet deceptive fairy tale
that promises berries without thorns
and a future without heartbreak.

Always, always, the liminal time,
teetering on thresholds,
pausing at portals,
testing every sill and doorstep,
holding my breath at dawn,
exhaling at dusk.

Teach me, Great Spirit of the Holy In-Between,
to trust the darkness,
to trust your keeping,
to pry open my fingers,
cup my palms,
and receive
the blessing of the night.

©Penelope J. Stokes

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Every Place on Earth is Thin

Rob WiltshireBack in the days when I was actively producing novels and teaching at writing conferences across the country, I tried to impress upon would-be writers the importance of white space on the page. Shorter paragraphs. Reduction of excessive verbiage. Less irrelevant adverbization.

“We live in a world of the twelve-second attention span,” I’d say. “Give your readers a place to rest their eyes.”

Now, with the advent of Facebook and Twitter, emoticons and Instagram, the national attention span has shrunk to eight seconds, and white space has become more important than ever.

But not just white space for the eyes. White space for the soul. A place, now and then, free of noise and rush and pressure, free of the frantic angst and worry and fear that is so much a part of 21st century life.

Since my wife Pam and I moved to Ecuador in September of last year, our lifestyle has changed dramatically. Much of our time each day is taken up with the simple business of living—going to the Mercado, buying fresh fruits and vegetables, cooking everything from scratch, washing dishes by hand, hanging laundry on the clothesline. We spend most evenings sitting on the terraza talking and sipping wine and watching the sun go down. We don’t own a TV. We catch a few shows on the computer, but we do it on our own schedule. Most of our leisure time is spent reading and listening to music—mostly classical, almost always peaceful.

If it sounds like we’ve dropped through a time warp back to the 1950s, sometimes it feels that way, too. With the exception of high speed Internet, life in Ecuador offers us a slower pace reminiscent of Mayberry, where people talk to their neighbors, come home for lunch, stroll along the river bank, and sit in the park to watch the dogs play.

But we don’t have to move abroad to make such a change. A simple shift in awareness will do as well.

Light in tree

Every place on earth is thin,
if only we have eyes to see the light
that pierces through,
or ears to hear the whispers
from another room.

Every place on earth is thin,
every step a threshold,
every stream a holy path,
every arching tree a portal,
every beast a totem
and a spirit guide.

All around us
breezes from the breath of God
ripple the curtains that divide;
each leaf and weed and bush
holds holy flame,
and every bird
sings glory.

©Penelope J. Stokes

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Home By Another Way


Epiphany. The Magi. Astrologers from a faraway land, following the light of an unknown star, their intellectual and spiritual curiosity driving them on to find…what?

An enigma swaddled in a mystery.
A terrible beauty.
A piercing question.
A challenge so deep and rich and dangerous that they had to go home by a different way.

All right, you’ll tell me that Epiphany is over, that on the 12th day of Christmas you took down your tree, put away the decorations, changed the colors on the altar, liberated the partridge from the pear tree, and braced yourself for the New Year to come.


But you’d be wrong. Epiphany isn’t over. It’s only getting started. Like the Incarnation, it’s always beginning. New life, new challenge, new year, new path.

In our end is our beginning,  T.S. Eliot wrote,

And what you thought you came for
Is only a shell, a husk of meaning
From which the purpose breaks only when it is fulfilled
If at all. Either you had no purpose
Or the purpose is beyond the end you figured
And is altered in fulfillment.

We long for Epiphany, for awakening, for that starlit Eureka moment when the earth tilts on its axis and the light grows bright. Some days, even a small Epiphanette would do.  What we forget is that Epiphany brings change. Radical change. Unexpected change. Sometimes unwelcome change.

The journey transforms us. The road keeps shifting. The way closes up behind us. We cannot return to who we were before the stars came out. We can’t go home the same way we arrived. Maybe we can’t go home at all.

milky way








The star-search leads us all
To unanticipated ends.
When our best understanding falters,
The stars hold no answers,
Only humility,
Only the question:
“Where are You?”

Where, in the blaze
Of a million suns
Lies that one candle?
Where is that single light,
The tiny, flickering wick
Whose fire alone
Can make our spirits burn?

The stars could lead us on
Looking for predictable places.
Or now, here,
Willing to lay down at last
The burden of our treasure,
We could kneel
And wonder.

©Penelope J. Stokes

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Bui-Doi: They Are All Our Children, Too

MissSaigonPosterI’m old enough to remember Vietnam. The horrific images of napalm warfare splashed across our TV screens. The propaganda. The rationalization. The fear. I remember in particular the images of the evacuation of Saigon, where helicopters airlifted out the last of the soldiers while television journalists on the rooftop bar of the Rex Hotel filmed the inglorious retreat.

Last February, my partner Pam and I stood on that same rooftop in the heart of Ho Chi Minh City and looked across toward the old American Embassy. I could almost hear the thundering thump-thump-thump of the helicopters.

Then yesterday we went to the Flat Rock Playhouse to see the musical, Miss Saigon. I had never seen the play, and only vaguely knew a few details:  that it was based on Puccini’s Madame Butterfly, and that it was set in Saigon during the Vietnam war.

I came away stunned.

Miss Saigon is not just the story of something that happened forty years ago, something so vile and violent that millions of us were driven to the streets in protest. In some ways it’s also the story of what’s happening right here, right now, this moment–something so vile and violent that we ought to be taking to the streets. Something that should never, never happen in a nation that began with a conscience call to freedom.

two-little-kids-looking-out-to-seaI’m talking about the children. The ones who come following a dream of peace and safety only to find themselves arrested and detained and crowded into places that look remarkably like concentration camps.

Those dirty, frightened, innocent children. The ones who strike such fear in our hearts.


Here’s the song from Miss Saigon that left me breathless and in tears.
Click the link to listen. And please, listen carefully. Read the lyrics below.
And ask yourself. . .well, just ask yourself.

Bui-Doi (They Are All Our Children, Too)


from Miss Saigon

They’re called Bui-Doi
The Dust of Life
Conceived in hell
And born in strife
They are the living reminders
Of all the good we failed to do
We can’t forget
Must not forget
That they are all
Our children too

Like all survivors, I once thought
When I’m home I won’t give a damn
But now I know I’m caught
I’ll never leave Vietnam

War isn’t over when it ends
Some pictures never leave your mind
They are the faces of the children
The ones we left behind

They’re called Bui-Doi
The Dust of Life
Conceived in hell
And born in strife
They are the living reminders
Of all the good we failed to do
We can’t forget
Must not forget
That they are all
Our children too

These kids hit walls on every side
They don’t belong in any place
Their secret they can’t hide
Its printed on their face
I never thought I’d plead
For half-breeds from a land that’s torn
But then I saw a camp for children
Whose crime was being born

They’re called Bui-Doi
The Dust of Life
Conceived in hell
And born in strife
We owe them fathers, and a family –
A loving home they never knew
Because we know
Deep in our hearts
That they are all
Our children too

These are souls in need
They need us to give
Someone has to pay
For their chance to life
Help me try

They’re called Bui-Doi
The Dust of Life
Conceived in hell
And born in strife
They are the living reminders
Of all the good we failed to do
That’s why we know
Deep in our hearts
That they are all
Our children too

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Suffer the Little Children

For the last two Sundays we’ve been discussing Genesis 22. A troubling text, this story about God calling Abraham to go and sacrifice Isaac, the child of the promise, as a so-called test of the old man’s faith.

The story won’t let me go. I’ve been thinking about how children still tremble under the sacrificial knife, how we offer up their well-being on the altars of materialism, greed, political ambition, selfishness, and societal expectation. I’ve been thinking about all those children here, in the richest country in the world, living in homelessness and hunger and crushing poverty. I’ve been thinking about all those children whose parents are being deported under our heartless immigration laws.

And then this morning, in a moment of serendipity, my friend and colleague Maren Tirabassi sent me this poem from her blog, Gifts in Open Hands.

I was touched. And I think you will be, too.

Mark 10:13-16 for the United States

Little children were coming
from the triangle of Guatemala,
El Salvador, Honduras –
many with only
their birth certificates

and there were authorities
and politicians
who wanted to turn away this “surge,”
saying maybe these children
have measles or lice.

But Jesus was indignant with them
and said,
“Let the children come
for it is by the welcome to these
that anyone can identify
what is the country of God.

“Truly, I tell you
whoever sends militia
to close the border or stop a bus
against one such child
will receive no visa
to the country of God.”

And Jesus took them up
into his arms,
in spite of drug cartels,
nativists, ICE,
and laid his hands on them
and blessed them.

Do you question my translation?
I forgot
the traditional word.
They do – suffer, the little children.

–Maren Tirabassi
July 9, 2014

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